I wish I had a family so I could die and my son wouldn’t have no one,

Since we have no one, I just live in this pain for him. It’s so frustrating. I love him so much, I would never leave him. I don’t know which would ruin his life more, me dying or me raising him alone never being enough.

I have tried EVERYTHING. I miss my Mom, she would of hugged me at least, even if she was still in the dementia ward, she knew who I was. But thankfully she doesn’t have to suffer anymore. She just left me with this mess. I couldn’t do that to my sweet boy.

Suffering for him is worth living for I guess.

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AlyAngel · F

Oh mama, huge hugs, believe me, you are not alone in feeling this way at all. I have been where you are, I have three babies, and I swear if it wasn't for them, I doubt I would even try to get through the day. I often wonder how much better my kids' lives would be if I were not around. I keep trying, for them, because the last thing I want to do is be the reason for their pain & suffering.