I wish I had a family so I could die and my son wouldn’t have no one,

Since we have no one, I just live in this pain for him. It’s so frustrating. I love him so much, I would never leave him. I don’t know which would ruin his life more, me dying or me raising him alone never being enough.

I have tried EVERYTHING. I miss my Mom, she would of hugged me at least, even if she was still in the dementia ward, she knew who I was. But thankfully she doesn’t have to suffer anymore. She just left me with this mess. I couldn’t do that to my sweet boy.

Suffering for him is worth living for I guess.

This page is a permanent link to the reply below and its nested replies. See all post replies »

MoonlightLullaby

I'm going to be a betting girl and say he not only admires you, but sees you in an entirely different light than expected; that you're actually MORE than enough.

My childhood was different than his, but nonetheless, extremely difficult. This is why/where/how my assurance is strong about this. Although it's tough for you to watch and cope with the only lifestyle you can provide at this point, these experiences are humbling him. They're strengthening him vs weakening him even though he likely displays signs of being the latter, which is completely natural and understandable. We all have moments of weakness when all of our needs are met.💖

You're trying hard, which says a lot about your strength and character. Please be gentle with yourself. 🌸✨