I wish I had a family so I could die and my son wouldn’t have no one,

Since we have no one, I just live in this pain for him. It’s so frustrating. I love him so much, I would never leave him. I don’t know which would ruin his life more, me dying or me raising him alone never being enough.

I have tried EVERYTHING. I miss my Mom, she would of hugged me at least, even if she was still in the dementia ward, she knew who I was. But thankfully she doesn’t have to suffer anymore. She just left me with this mess. I couldn’t do that to my sweet boy.

Suffering for him is worth living for I guess.