I wish I had a family so I could die and my son wouldn’t have no one,

Since we have no one, I just live in this pain for him. It’s so frustrating. I love him so much, I would never leave him. I don’t know which would ruin his life more, me dying or me raising him alone never being enough.

I have tried EVERYTHING. I miss my Mom, she would of hugged me at least, even if she was still in the dementia ward, she knew who I was. But thankfully she doesn’t have to suffer anymore. She just left me with this mess. I couldn’t do that to my sweet boy.

Suffering for him is worth living for I guess.

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WaryWitchWandering · 36-40, F

He would be wrecked without you… your best is more than enough for your kiddo… he is lucky to have you ❤️

they love us (flaws and all)

RebelFox · 36-40, F

@WaryWitchWandering but I don’t want to live. I’m so tired. It’s not going away, I think I’ve really had enough.

WaryWitchWandering · 36-40, F

@RebelFox I’ve been there a couple times… that’s when I end up back on an anti depressant just to give me a boost so I can climb my way back up and out of it

RebelFox · 36-40, F

@WaryWitchWandering I’ve tried meds and they always make it worse. I need hugs. It’s really that simple but it’s hard when you’re a loser and can’t meet people.

WaryWitchWandering · 36-40, F

@RebelFox you’re not a loser… but your environment is bumming you out