My late mother wasn’t a mother to me and left after my autism diagnosis. Why do I still feel sad now she’s gone?
Last January she died from a bad seizure that killed her. Getting that call was the WORST early morning ever. Not a lot of people have sympathy for the woman that walked out on my dad and I when I was a child and she didn’t want a “normal child”. My family doesn’t feel like I need to grieve over the woman that didn’t give a rats ass about me. My dad even called her a “bitch” right in front of me. Other people said ugly things about her and didn’t care if they did it in front of me because I’m “old enough” to hear the ugly things. Even my best friend were like, “Look we’re not trying to be ugly but, why are you grieving over a woman that didn’t want you? That bitch didn’t want anything to do with you so there’s no point in grieving about her. You can’t be sad all the time. It’s going to ruin your life and effect everything.”
So harsh. Nobody went to her funeral. It was only me, my dad and my grandparents (moms parents). My dad didn’t mince his words about her. He mentioned the great times and when they had me. After that he had nothing nice to say about my mom. My older siblings didn’t ever come or none of my aunts and uncles. It was really upsetting that my siblings didn’t come to their own step moms funeral. Nobody cared that my mom died. They felt bad that she had a seizure but not bad that she’s gone because she was a terrible mother to me.
So harsh. Nobody went to her funeral. It was only me, my dad and my grandparents (moms parents). My dad didn’t mince his words about her. He mentioned the great times and when they had me. After that he had nothing nice to say about my mom. My older siblings didn’t ever come or none of my aunts and uncles. It was really upsetting that my siblings didn’t come to their own step moms funeral. Nobody cared that my mom died. They felt bad that she had a seizure but not bad that she’s gone because she was a terrible mother to me.
22-25, F