I Miss My Mother Who Is Deceased

Even after four years it's still HARD. A child losing their mother especially daughers is HEARTBREAKING. My world feel apart when my mom was killed and I hated Mother's Day ever since. When I see people with their mothers, I get sad, jealous and hurt. I despise seeing my friends with their mothers and I went as far as shunning them. I hate and I mean HATE seeing daughters especially middle aged daughters with their mothers. I even envy kids visiting their moms or talking to their moms on the phone. I won't grow old and have a mom. I have my aunts and grandma but I prefer mom. I counted on her, I depended on her and now she is gone. I have to grow up fast. Well I'm already grown up. I WANT MY MOMMY!! 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😢😢😢😢😢😢😠😠😠😠😠😠😠😠😠 Mom's are special and I DONT HAVE A MOM

I dread Mother's Day.

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MarmeeMarch · M

Well I am sorry about your loss but - would your mom approve of the way you feel toward others WITH moms ? - Cause you sound bitter and that is just putting a negative blob on the loss of your loved one. Instead - try talking to your mom in a nice spot where its quiet and reflect on the good memories.

SassySpiceSexy · 26-30, F

@MarmeeMarch I can't help get jealous of people with their moms. It isn't fair! Even my dad had his mom still (grandma). My aunts and grandma are like mother figures but I prefer my mom. I can't stand seeing people hanging on to their moms. I saw my best friend and my other two girlfriends cuddling with her mothers and and it hurt me so bad that I had to walk out of the room. My friends don't care that I'm hurting still.

MarmeeMarch · M

@SassySpiceSexy Just remember - that you already lost your mom - done - I know it still hurts but trust me in time you will be a little happier hopefully. Now as I was going to say - your friends with moms and other ppl you see with moms will lose their mothers one day - I know its a messed up way of looking at it but everyone will experience that loss. So - yea, IDK - they will experience the pain you have now. And I really hate to even say this but - if it makes you feel better ? IDK -

SassySpiceSexy · 26-30, F

@MarmeeMarch Yeah but it doesn't make me feel any better. So what you're saying is that I'll be happier that my mom is more longer slide. You seem to be a little insensitive about this. You don't understand the pain I'm going though.

MarmeeMarch · M

@SassySpiceSexy I understand, what you are going through. But I dont understand why you feel that way toward others with mothers ? - I know its hurtful but like I said why dont you just let that feeling that you have to the ppl with mothers just slide - and think of the good things and good times ? And dont let this consume you. Its is not going to help you heal.