It was my dad's birthday the other week since he passed
I feel conflicted around this time of year, we didn't have much of a relationship, the only memories I have are from when I met him before he passed from cancer.
I have one good memory that makes me laugh, when I was 7 a kid next door tried to bully me so he gave me a tennis racket and told me to wait for him around the corner from his house. I shouted his name and when he came around the corner I hit him so hard in the face he had a racket print on his face for most of the day 😆
I grieved him as a child, I remember a kid in year 4 making fun of me because I didn't have a dad anymore, I blacked out and dragged him by his hair up and down the football field like 3 times 😂 it's funny now, but it really effected me and made me feel like there was something bad about me and that it was my fault my family wasn't together. I felt the same in year 6 when I nearly lost my mum and people said things about her. I'm lucky I didn't lose her or id have literally been an orphan. But it makes me reflect on how precious family is.
When he passed I had gotten some form of closure and connection, like a missing piece inside me had been filled that I never knew was empty. I'm left with the thoughts of how my life might have been different if things had worked out and that's something I do reflect on.
It's complicated, but at least I met him. There's people who never had a family at all and I'm really grateful for what I have. Love the ones you got while they're here ✌
I have one good memory that makes me laugh, when I was 7 a kid next door tried to bully me so he gave me a tennis racket and told me to wait for him around the corner from his house. I shouted his name and when he came around the corner I hit him so hard in the face he had a racket print on his face for most of the day 😆
I grieved him as a child, I remember a kid in year 4 making fun of me because I didn't have a dad anymore, I blacked out and dragged him by his hair up and down the football field like 3 times 😂 it's funny now, but it really effected me and made me feel like there was something bad about me and that it was my fault my family wasn't together. I felt the same in year 6 when I nearly lost my mum and people said things about her. I'm lucky I didn't lose her or id have literally been an orphan. But it makes me reflect on how precious family is.
When he passed I had gotten some form of closure and connection, like a missing piece inside me had been filled that I never knew was empty. I'm left with the thoughts of how my life might have been different if things had worked out and that's something I do reflect on.
It's complicated, but at least I met him. There's people who never had a family at all and I'm really grateful for what I have. Love the ones you got while they're here ✌
