I need to be strong to be able to do what I have to today. I need to be sharp ,eloquent, persistent, brave and unshakable.

I am very much going into battle with sharks 🥲 without any transparency of the process involved.

I pushed for a program (human rights' related), invested in it heavily , that will require so much change from the top down. It will and is already annoying a lot of people

I surprisingly recieved a "Yes" two weeks ago from one of the decision makers. It was so far fetched I literally collapsed emotionally. Everyone thought I will fail to convince them and so did I. But I believe in trying to improve things regardless.

There are conditions attached to the yes, and people who decided to make things extra difficult and work against the goal and end up before it takes foundations.

I am anxious, not necessarily because of this. This month is hard for me due to my childhood and it is messing with a lot of my thoughts.

I have to remember why I am doing this. I am doing this for war victims, for refugees, for children and I can't back down now and play small. And I can't stay behind the curtains anymore cheering and encouraging.

I will do this. I can do this. I will fake it until I make it. I will play the games. I will win. I have to.