At least we won the series

And baby girl broke my heart and I don't know how to fix it.

So our daughter and I had a great afternoon watching the Royals even though we lost when we shouldn't of. We had lunch, we are cookies we cheered and got disappointed.

We had dinner and she had her cello lessons. She is getting so good. And man every time she plays it makes me cry. But the way she played tonight was almost sad, heart breaking really.

So we finished dinner and got ready for the royals second game. We watched it inside. We made s'mores and had the fireplace going and I was sitting by Joel on the couch, the boys were playing and watching TV on the toy blanket and she was in her bean bag chair.

Daddy will you sit with me

I of course said yes and we watched the game and cheered as we won the 2nd game. It was a g

They game was long even for a summer night it was every one's bed time.

She was getting ready for bed then she asked

Daddy can you work from home tomorrow I don't think I want to go to Grandma's


Now I was worried. I took her to her room and set her on her bed

Baby girl what is going on

She looks at me and starts crying.

I'm sorry Daddy I didn't know mommy left you because of me

Sweet heart hat's not true

mom left because of me. I'm sorry Daddy. I so so sorry.

Who told you that

Grandma did. She sent me a text message. She said Mommy couldn't handle my issues and that is why she left us.

I don't know if anyone was ever felt every emotion hit your body at once but holly shit it doesn't feel good at all.

Baby girl no that's not true at all. Your mommy left because I'm a mess and she couldn't deal with it.

Don't lie to me Daddy that's not true.

Holly fucking shit what did my fucking mother text her.

Honey she left because of the both of us.

I don't know if that was the right thing to say. I'm sure it wasn't but it was the truth my wife left me because she couldn't deal with my tourette's and she left my daughter because she couldn't deal with her special needs. She left out son because of us. Who do you tell a 12 year old child this. How do I fix this.

I never wanted my daughter to know this, to feel the pain and to feel bad for who she is. But my mother felt she should know the truth and I don't know how to fix it. To help her. I can deal with it but I never wanted her to feel it. Joel and I are both talking tomorrow off. To be with her to try and fix it.

This is my worst nightmare come try