I've realized something. How to have an unhealthy relationship

My wife made me feel she was embarrassed by almost everything I did. Not they embarrassed her, I was an embarrassment to her. When the work you do and feel good about you don't want to share because she'll make you feel shitty about it it hurts.

When you don't mention who your friends are because they're exactly what she sarcastically or maybe seriously suggested you go find for friends and you know she'll hate you for having them even though they're just friends.

You don't tell her anything about anything because you know she'll make you feel she's embarrassed you even think that. My goal in life is to retire, she thinks I should want to work more. I've got 30 years of working my ass off, I'd like to not anymore