They call it "sins of the father" for a reason. Kids of dysfunctional adults always end up being the ones to pay the price. Sorry you were dealt that hand in life. I know what that's like

It's not much of a consolation, but I find great motivation in knowing that all their stupid, selfish impulses end with me. To be the one with the strength to break the cycle

It seems that in your own way, you too are finding your strength by granting him forgiveness and remembrance. It's a sign of healing. When you've risen above your circumstances, you recognize the power of your choices. To give from your own volition speaks more highly about your character than his