Ughh uhhgssh
I wish I could just get my own place!! Living with my mom is an endless nightmare, I can never make her happy. I went back to college like she asked, that's not good enough though!
She said if I did change my major I'd be a failure and won't get any work, so I changed it! Now shes telling me to follow my own dreams and do what I want, and I told her I want to drop out and focus on working and saving my money for a car. But that was too unrealistic and dumb I guess, so I cant do that!
Now I'm working 2 jobs AND going to college for a degree I don't even want for some imaginary job I'll maybe get in the future. And now my jobs aren't good enough for her either! She wants me to quit one of my jobs because she saw a flyer that looked "interesting" to her and she wants me to do that now instead??
My current jobs align with my schedule for college perfectly, I don't understand why she wants me to quit so bad and start a new job?! She knows I'm new to working and still getting used to having a regular work schedule. So I told her no, I like my bosses and coworkers, the work is challenging but not to the point where its stressful. So I don't really have a reason to quit.
For some reason she just wont let this go. Every chance she gets she brings up this stupid job, even after I told her I wasn't interested. It's getting to a point where it feels almost disrespectful. I feel like she's only pushing me to do more and more, when I'm already doing what I'm supposed to. I'd understand if I wasn't contributing anything to the household, but I always give her money for bills, groceries, essential items like toothpaste and toiletries, and even money so she can get her nails done!
I always do my best to contribute, and yet it feels like none of that matters. I don't even know what she wants from me at this point. One day she's thanking me, and saying I'm a good daughter. The next she says I'm lazy and not ambitious enough.
I just want my own shit, and to be left alone. She makes me so mad I just want to drive off a cliff.
She said if I did change my major I'd be a failure and won't get any work, so I changed it! Now shes telling me to follow my own dreams and do what I want, and I told her I want to drop out and focus on working and saving my money for a car. But that was too unrealistic and dumb I guess, so I cant do that!
Now I'm working 2 jobs AND going to college for a degree I don't even want for some imaginary job I'll maybe get in the future. And now my jobs aren't good enough for her either! She wants me to quit one of my jobs because she saw a flyer that looked "interesting" to her and she wants me to do that now instead??
My current jobs align with my schedule for college perfectly, I don't understand why she wants me to quit so bad and start a new job?! She knows I'm new to working and still getting used to having a regular work schedule. So I told her no, I like my bosses and coworkers, the work is challenging but not to the point where its stressful. So I don't really have a reason to quit.
For some reason she just wont let this go. Every chance she gets she brings up this stupid job, even after I told her I wasn't interested. It's getting to a point where it feels almost disrespectful. I feel like she's only pushing me to do more and more, when I'm already doing what I'm supposed to. I'd understand if I wasn't contributing anything to the household, but I always give her money for bills, groceries, essential items like toothpaste and toiletries, and even money so she can get her nails done!
I always do my best to contribute, and yet it feels like none of that matters. I don't even know what she wants from me at this point. One day she's thanking me, and saying I'm a good daughter. The next she says I'm lazy and not ambitious enough.
I just want my own shit, and to be left alone. She makes me so mad I just want to drive off a cliff.
18-21, F
