Just a rant

Little irritated at my mother because she doesn’t want me to work for exactly a couple of things she wants me to do for her. So I’m having to wait to apply just because she knows I won’t be able to ask off for those days. And this job search shit is killing me. I just want it to end. Not to mention I have my own shit I likely won’t be able to ask off for either but she only cares about what she needs. She begged me to quit my job for her sake as well. So I’m having to go through all this just because of that. Hate it. Hate living here.. hate that I still want to drink and that’s what’s got me in this boat to begin with.