I feel sad sometimes
I sat thinking the other day how I felt when I lost my dad, he wasn’t the greatest dad over the year but he did his best but we was never really close but when I lost him I felt alone because I hadn’t only lost my dad I had lost my mum about 14 years ago and it felt weird to think I had no parents around anymore.
It was a very bizarre feeling i remember sitting with my family and saying omg I am alone now in which they said no you still have your family but I couldn’t express how losing both parents made me feel.
I was never close to either of my parents and my relationship with my mum was very toxic because she was an alcoholic which made it hard to form any sort of relationship with her.
After she died I felt extremely lost and her death hit me really hard as before she past away we started to bond so after she past I felt a lot of emotions and even now I miss her terribly.
When my dad past I felt I had let him down as he was ill for such a long time before he died and I had brought him to my house to try and look after him but he ended up dying so I felt a lot of guilt that I couldn’t save him or my mum.
Life feels so weird when you lose both parents but I know I have my family and try my best to be a good mum to my three boys and a good wife to my husband.
It was a very bizarre feeling i remember sitting with my family and saying omg I am alone now in which they said no you still have your family but I couldn’t express how losing both parents made me feel.
I was never close to either of my parents and my relationship with my mum was very toxic because she was an alcoholic which made it hard to form any sort of relationship with her.
After she died I felt extremely lost and her death hit me really hard as before she past away we started to bond so after she past I felt a lot of emotions and even now I miss her terribly.
When my dad past I felt I had let him down as he was ill for such a long time before he died and I had brought him to my house to try and look after him but he ended up dying so I felt a lot of guilt that I couldn’t save him or my mum.
Life feels so weird when you lose both parents but I know I have my family and try my best to be a good mum to my three boys and a good wife to my husband.
