Had a bad dream…

I dreamed I was yelling at my mom and I kept yelling you never protected me. I sorta forgot about it until in my head I thought we’d had that fight and then I remembered I had dreamed it. The act of being asleep while being touched still bothers me. And I knew that’s what I meant. But idk who did it. Obviously. I just know I was in her bed and whatever happened she allowed. And that in itself feels like betrayal. I know because when I was a kid I told her and she didn’t do anything