Can’t look in eyes

And then I want to not hate my dad. But he did awful things when I was a child. I was terrified of him every day. I hated going home from school. I remember him hitting me and watching him hurt my brothers. I tried to protect everyone but no one protected me. I can’t look him in the eyes now.

Another thing he loved to do was pretend he was going to have a wreck when driving and I hated being in a car with him