Life is just a dark cloud right now
My dad's hands are cold, he hasn't woken up in six hours now, the longest I've ever seen. He's in day nine of hospice and I'm noticing his breaths are taking longer. He has pneumonia too so it is heartbreaking watching him sleep with wheezing. I don't know if aggressive cancer patients get pneumonia typically, or if it was because he had an untreated phlegm cough for years.
I asked his nurse to give him a pill for the wheezing but she said he's asleep. It's best he sleeps and is not in pain. But after six hours I think that's a long time to not wake him. His nurse last night simply stirred him awake to take his pill. This is so fucking hard. No one deserves to end life like this. With your body ravaged from aggressive rapid cancer.
I am so sad this could potentially be the last day he's alive. Last night he could barely speak. He tried so hard to say Love you..it was so weak I'm still not sure if he said it but he said Miss you to my sister.
The only main positive that can come of his passing is he won't be in terrible awful pain.
I asked his nurse to give him a pill for the wheezing but she said he's asleep. It's best he sleeps and is not in pain. But after six hours I think that's a long time to not wake him. His nurse last night simply stirred him awake to take his pill. This is so fucking hard. No one deserves to end life like this. With your body ravaged from aggressive rapid cancer.
I am so sad this could potentially be the last day he's alive. Last night he could barely speak. He tried so hard to say Love you..it was so weak I'm still not sure if he said it but he said Miss you to my sister.
The only main positive that can come of his passing is he won't be in terrible awful pain.
