Preparing for the call

I'll be visiting my dad in hospice again tomorrow, but any day we could get a call he passed 🙁 I can sit here and I've been venting often about my sadness of this mean awful disease (cancer). And I'm ok, for the most part. But Very sad, helpless.
When I hear he's passed I fear that panic will overtake me. That I'll get heart palpitations. I have an anxiety disorder. Wish I could feel even a bit more reassured that I'll get through 😞

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RodneyTrotter1 · 100+, M

Although my dad was very frail and needed to be spoon fed, I still thought my dad would be here forever and that call would never come.
Hug him if you can, tell him you love him as many times as you want to, leave no doors open to regret.
Have you got close family nearby who you can be with when you suspect that call may be due?

Coralmist · 41-45, F

@RodneyTrotter1 It was hard to hug him Bec he said it hurts to even touch him. But I rubbed his shoulder and held his hand. And he kissed my hand as I left. He hasn't done that in many years. I am going to be with my sister if that call comes, thank you. 🌻