Preparing for the call

I'll be visiting my dad in hospice again tomorrow, but any day we could get a call he passed 🙁 I can sit here and I've been venting often about my sadness of this mean awful disease (cancer). And I'm ok, for the most part. But Very sad, helpless.
When I hear he's passed I fear that panic will overtake me. That I'll get heart palpitations. I have an anxiety disorder. Wish I could feel even a bit more reassured that I'll get through 😞

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IM5688 · 70-79, M

Although you will feel sadness, you'll also feel your anxiety kick in as you won't know what to do first. There are people who will help you. Reach out to them.
You will also feel a sense of relief, like a burden has been lifted because he is no longer suffering and/or in pain.
Hang in there. You can and will get through this.

Coralmist · 41-45, F

@IM5688 Thank you so much. I just feel this overwhelm coming. I so wanted him to be saved and get treatment, but it's SO aggressive, treatment is rarely helpful they said for this type. Ty again 🪻