Preparing for the call

I'll be visiting my dad in hospice again tomorrow, but any day we could get a call he passed 🙁 I can sit here and I've been venting often about my sadness of this mean awful disease (cancer). And I'm ok, for the most part. But Very sad, helpless.
When I hear he's passed I fear that panic will overtake me. That I'll get heart palpitations. I have an anxiety disorder. Wish I could feel even a bit more reassured that I'll get through 😞

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RosaMarie · 46-50, F

If you are worried for your own health and safety, please have a plan for that. Try to be with someone who knows about your condition and can help. If you have meds, make sure you're taking them. If you have meds you take as a reaction to an episode, make sure those are with you always. Don't be afraid to ask for help for yourself.

Coralmist · 41-45, F

@RosaMarie I don't have meds, lovely anxiety itself prevents me taking them for any side effects. But also I don't have full blown panic attacks ...but I can get severe elevated anxiety. Heart racing, blood pressure goes up and tight chest. My sister knows about it so I'll be near her which is good. And hopefully it'll only last a few minutes if anything. I've been acclimating myself daily that's he's leaving this world, and I'm hoping it's someplace with calm and peaceful...Thank you.

RosaMarie · 46-50, F

@Coralmist I'll be calling my own dad today. All of this makes me appreciate how much time I've gotten with both of my parents. And that nothing is guaranteed to us.