I wish I would have gone to school for counseling or psychiatry

I went to school for medical stuff, I should have focused more on the mind. It naturally interests me and also I have a born inclination toward genuinely trying to empathize with people who are struggling. Since my dad had his meltdown and got arrested, I am so tortured, wondering how he got there and what is going on in his mind. If I could help other people who are struggling with mental health like that, I'd feel like I was paying a certain karmic duty to the world, at least in that small way.

I wonder if it's too late to start now. My grandma went to school and became a counselor in her 60s. 🤔

I'm so heartbroken about everything that happened. If he had unalived anyone (especially my brother!) I never would have forgiven him. He really was a good man once. I have to remember that.