Venting... Just trying
I finally got my medical insurance and social security gave me a date next month so i can get
interviewed. I am praying things will get easier, i dont even want child support because i dont want
my sons dad in his life. I have a daughter from another relationship and i have joint custody with
her dad but since i got in extremely bad situation i let her live with her dad and he was spiteful to
never let her come back. I am not mad because i still see her weekly and we have a great
relationship. I dont ever speak about her dad because he was evil and he waited for a vulnerable
moment to take me to court and try to get sole custody , it never happened. Nowadays he got his
karma and i will leave it at that because the thought of him disgusts me.. yeah so i have 2 evil
dads . In these years i have learned a lot and what i don't want. I sure don't want another
relationship, i want to fix myself. I feel like i never deserved this but i did. When i think about how i
grew up , i get a bit bothered and angry, I wish i was just swallowed. My birth mother gave me up
and i went into a family that made sure i knew i didn't belong. It was a bit tough, i suffered with
mental issues. I couldn't understand anything going on and i couldn't finish school. I got left back in
second grade and again in seventh grade. I'm 31 now , i was proud when i got a certification
because i actually was able to finish something. Especially being alone with no family, I eventually
found my real one and they showed me i was just another passerby. My mom is not okay she is a
recovering addict and my sisters and brothers suffer from mental illnesses as well so we don't
speak .. the system has hurt them so i get it . I am not mad but at the fact that i should've been
swallowed. I would've been okay not knowing this world or any . I died 2 times in this life, maybe
more from being constantly let down. I barely made it out alive from this whatever you want to call
it .. situation with my sons dad. It was like i met ted Bundy in the flesh but i just made it out alive
from playing "the game" Stockholm syndrome ... Forgive me because i am still learning what the
hell i went through . I am still healing ... thank you for everyone who just takes the time to read
what i write. I have so much to say and i tend to rant off from not having anyone to talk to. Thank
you for giving me a space to be heard and understood
interviewed. I am praying things will get easier, i dont even want child support because i dont want
my sons dad in his life. I have a daughter from another relationship and i have joint custody with
her dad but since i got in extremely bad situation i let her live with her dad and he was spiteful to
never let her come back. I am not mad because i still see her weekly and we have a great
relationship. I dont ever speak about her dad because he was evil and he waited for a vulnerable
moment to take me to court and try to get sole custody , it never happened. Nowadays he got his
karma and i will leave it at that because the thought of him disgusts me.. yeah so i have 2 evil
dads . In these years i have learned a lot and what i don't want. I sure don't want another
relationship, i want to fix myself. I feel like i never deserved this but i did. When i think about how i
grew up , i get a bit bothered and angry, I wish i was just swallowed. My birth mother gave me up
and i went into a family that made sure i knew i didn't belong. It was a bit tough, i suffered with
mental issues. I couldn't understand anything going on and i couldn't finish school. I got left back in
second grade and again in seventh grade. I'm 31 now , i was proud when i got a certification
because i actually was able to finish something. Especially being alone with no family, I eventually
found my real one and they showed me i was just another passerby. My mom is not okay she is a
recovering addict and my sisters and brothers suffer from mental illnesses as well so we don't
speak .. the system has hurt them so i get it . I am not mad but at the fact that i should've been
swallowed. I would've been okay not knowing this world or any . I died 2 times in this life, maybe
more from being constantly let down. I barely made it out alive from this whatever you want to call
it .. situation with my sons dad. It was like i met ted Bundy in the flesh but i just made it out alive
from playing "the game" Stockholm syndrome ... Forgive me because i am still learning what the
hell i went through . I am still healing ... thank you for everyone who just takes the time to read
what i write. I have so much to say and i tend to rant off from not having anyone to talk to. Thank
you for giving me a space to be heard and understood
31-35, F
