My father wasn't a that bad and yet...

I don't want to talk to him .. he's been calling me since yesterday..
He wasn't bad tbh .. he raised me right, had a good childhood.. sure he made some mistakes but who doesn't ?

I haven't seen him for almost 7 years now cuz he lives in another city and as the years goes by I feel that thread of connection is slowly fading away ..
I can't put a finger on why I don't feel answering his calls and I feel guilty for not to actually.. and the anxiety of answering the "why'' question is piling up.. cuz I honestly don't know what to say 🤷🏻‍♂.

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solitaire · 41-45, F

I'm estranged from my mom. She lives in Australia (migrated many years ago) and I live in India. In 2017 when I visited her there was an altercation (I ended up slapping her). After that she banished me from entering her house ever again. Together with that - my Australian PR went for a toss because I could not go the proceeding year to renew it (considering the circumstances). In 2024 she said she wanted to visit India and see me. I told her that since I was banished from her house she cannot come here either. Also told her women like her should never bear children because it is true - she said a lot of NASTY STUFF and beat me when I was a kid. When she visited India in the past there would be an unwritten tension between us. Even if she passes away I won't be able to attend her funeral (not that it would make any difference whether she's alive or dead). I'm close to my dad on the other hand. He is in India for my sake I guess and he's been caught in between. Also if he were to move to Australia I'd have no one here. Rather selfish of me I know and I've been judged on that count!!

KENNOSUKE · 31-35, M

@solitaire your situation is a lot tougher than mine .. it must have been difficult for you .

solitaire · 41-45, F

@KENNOSUKE Yes. Been this way since 2017. Thank you for understanding ❤