My father wasn't a that bad and yet...

I don't want to talk to him .. he's been calling me since yesterday..
He wasn't bad tbh .. he raised me right, had a good childhood.. sure he made some mistakes but who doesn't ?

I haven't seen him for almost 7 years now cuz he lives in another city and as the years goes by I feel that thread of connection is slowly fading away ..
I can't put a finger on why I don't feel answering his calls and I feel guilty for not to actually.. and the anxiety of answering the "why'' question is piling up.. cuz I honestly don't know what to say 🤷🏻‍♂.