Drowning deep

I went to enroll my son into this school and i liked it at first until the women in the office didnt seem to know much unless i highlighted something and now she knows the information. I was explaining the type of voucher i have. It seemed as if they had one worded answers and they were quick to say i was missing some type of information. They just werent so welcoming and its sad because i am looking to start work and iv come across so many bad daycares. I have grown so uncomfortable and dont know what to do and who to trust.. I had unwanted thoughts come to my head because i love my kid but god i dont know what world i got in thinking it would be easy. I see why some women resort to do things they dont want to ... not saying i would but God knows iv been struggling with my son especially being non verbal and hes three.. He wants a lot of love and attention, im so miserable im missing everything.and giving it 24/7 is challenging. behind stress .I cant go to my childrens dad .and the times i did ... i always regret it.police always gets involved because hes an angry boy. .. Dating is hard when you have nothing. Lord i try but im so tired and im drowning