I’m experiencing exactly what you’re saying. I didn’t have fun as a teenager bcz i was depressed abd had a death wish.
Now I’m in love with life and want to experience everything. Literally everything, ofc I won’t hurt myself, won’t smoke weed daily and stick to health improvement routine ( healthy diet, workout) bcz this human body is what will get me to experIenxe everything.. like I’m so happy, why would someone happY hurt themeselves ( ofc addiction is bound to happen , but appreciating this life and human body will be what will get u out of it and gives. Wake up call in case addiction happens…
I can tell from your picture that you’re swept off your feet n experiencing bliss