Daddy issues

Through out my whole childhood i thought it was somewhat normal to not have a father figure untill fourth grade when I volunteered to serve food at a father daughter dance because i had never been to one before that (they had them every year back then) and the feeling of seeing all of those little girls hugging their fathers and bonding enraged little me. Most of my cousins had so many pictures of them with their fathers but i didn't have A SINGLE ONE with mine. It was like he didn't exist.I literally hate seeing anyone with a good relation ship with their fathers because i wanted that so badly. Like i CRAVED to have that. I even tried to keep in contact with my father until i eventually gave up. People never talk about the reality of daddy issues they just think its something thats attractive... just needed to let that out lmfao