The Family Who has Forgotten

My dad passed away in 2018. Since then, I have heard little from his side of the family….even less than before, which was already next to none. They lost touch with me more and more since my mother left my father when I was 4. We moved from Texas to Florida, and have been here ever since.

Fast forward to the years 2007-2009, my mother’s side of the family lost 4 people, my dad’s side lost 1. Since then I have felt very lost and lonely. I have yearned to have family around me as I have no siblings. When my dad died in 2018, I felt even worse even though he lived in Texas. At least he kept in touch. The family on his side has always been pretty distant. My mother’s side, well, we get together on occasion, but only if they are able to get time off. They also live in other states now as well.

But let me get to the point.

I feel left out.

My cousin’s daughter on my dad’s side got married yesterday, and I’ve also only met her once or twice.

I probably barely ever come up in their minds.

I’m afraid I’ve been forgotten.

All I want and feel as though I need, is acceptance.

But I don’t think I’ll ever have that.