Why can’t I get over it?

@thewindupbirdchronicles I’m sure your emotional intuition and empathy was very meaningful to her. Love doesn’t just go away, it creates bonds, healthy or toxic, you are connected 🖤

@AlchemyFox I do have windows into her life. We, of course, made mutual friends together. Soon as I found out, she was entering Masters for social work, I wanted to give her words in support. She knew I knew how hard she has been trying.

@thewindupbirdchronicles Had you lost your dad at that point?

Maybe it’s a lil weird but I find comfort in being around others who know loss.

@AlchemyFox I lost my father the year my ex-partner and I had met. She went through me grieving; trust me, it was not easy. I wanted to be there for her after, of course, but it's almost as if I had no choice. Her father became one to me.

@AlchemyFox I do understand what you mean in comfort. Who have you lost if you don't mind me asking?

@thewindupbirdchronicles I understand completely…

Both my parents passed away recently, my one sane uncle, two of my best friends and my most recent boyfriend committed suicide.

The man I was dating when my mom passed, his dad kinda jumped in for me. He would help me with house stuff and was just a kind man. I really took to him and trusted him, but he passed away last year. I too drove straight to my ex to be there for him. When people understand loss, the understand the value of being there for each other. How you can put most anything aside in a sense, to simply be with someone while they hurt.

Because like we said, those feelings are perfectly valid 🖤

💜@AlchemyFox Dear, if I may call you that.... that is really a lot in a short period of time. You have all my compassion, support, empathy, and I feel you know the path in healing your grief; I really do. Much much love.

I want to quote Dylan, changing it up some, sometimes our burden is more than any can see.

@thewindupbirdchronicles Of course. I appreciate any kindness and term of endearment if genuine 🖤 Thank you for your sweet words.

Indeed it has been a lot. It’s so much more, but I’ve molded it into something beautiful for my son and I. Or I try. Not positive and shiny, but authentic and adventurous? Perhaps to be equated to something tangible, a lightweight bag that holds simple gestures and kind words. Because often that’s all there is as sustenance for our hearts and we’ve learned to live on little 🙏

So thank you truly. You made my day and it’s not going to be an easy one today. Thank you 🖤

@AlchemyFox Keep looking for that sustenance, thrive on it.... and I guess in a way I broke a promise, but these are things I trust you already know and do.. so really I'm giving you an affirmative in appreciation.

You've also made my day. 💜

@thewindupbirdchronicles I hear you, I see you, I feel you.

I appreciate you too hun. Truly, thank you 🖤

@AlchemyFox I know you know how to find support this way, but if you ever want just to write someone who will listen, I am open. I do actually believe in we create life together, I think so many have forgotten.

@thewindupbirdchronicles I’m terrible at finding support 😆 I do everything alone, it just works out that way, but also, fear 🖤 Do you feel you’re let down a lot because you’re sensitive?

I would love a chat with you sometime.

@AlchemyFox I was once good at connecting with people who I loved. The older I get, I find I get more in my way. I fear becoming sensitive because I know if I open up vulnerably, they will just in turn hurt me.

@thewindupbirdchronicles it’s true. Far too many will rip you apart remorselessly.

I think you’re simply being wise. You have a lot to protect with that sweet heart of yours. Keep it safe till someone treats you like the treasure you are 🖤

@AlchemyFox To answer more directly, as a male I often feel many won't perceive me as I won't be, and one thing I have been doing is just be myself, express what I need, listen, and? The last part is always a work in progress.

@thewindupbirdchronicles Yeah it’s quite sad how men are perceived. And you are only being yourself, thinking you need to try harder because of not only the stigma, but how men are raised in society. When I’m reality, you’re a dream.

Cheers to your strength.

@AlchemyFox I expect that sentiment is echoed in so many ways. How many are just trying.

Here is cheers to your strength. To me, you are a cut above many I intereact with.

@thewindupbirdchronicles We’re out here 🖤

@AlchemyFox I know you are, and thank you. I love how you put yourself 'out there'

@thewindupbirdchronicles It’s raw and not often well received, but always a pleasure to meet someone who isn’t deterred by the bitterness of truth and the ugly bits of beauty.

@AlchemyFox It won't be coincidence I also love bittersweet stories, many do - and there is beauty in the raw parts of life we shroud with niceties. I didn't even really think I was entirely going there, but I know my words belong