Apple crisp at midnight

One of the only times I ever remember cuddling with my mum, was the time my dad left (oh, he left many times actually, but this was one of the worst).

My mum made apple crisp for her and I and we curled up in a reclining chair together, listening to a movie. I remember falling asleep against her. Waking up many times because I was so uneasy. Weary, exhausted... So was she. But so much more, I'm sure.

Every time a relationship ends, I feel the same way as that did. Just lost and hopeless and loved but unwanted by one so I feel like I can never be happy again. Worthless and unwanted

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OhIsMe · 41-45, M

There's a book I read my son called "The big big sea"

It's an adult reminiscing about the time she went out to splash in the sea at night with her mum, then they got cold and wrapped themselves in blankets by a fire.

I get so emotional reading it because I'm nostalgic for a time I never had. I don't have any memories of closeness with my family, so there's such an emptiness there.

I'm glad that even if this memory for you evokes sadness, that there was someone you could be close to and hold on tight to.

caccoon · 36-40

@OhIsMe I'm so sorry that you haven't had any close memories of moments with your family. This is one of the most prominents one I have, but there are a few others. And I am lucky for them <3