I'm tired. So tired of listening to my mother go over and over and over about

The same toxic things. I'm so tired. So so so tired. I was born listening to them. Grew up listening to them. The same old problems with the same old people. I'm so tired. Nothing has changed over these 30 years. How can u wake up to talk about the exact same thing, and obsessively go on about it throughout the entire day, then go to sleep talking about it too?? I've never heard a normal conversation at home or a conversation that is not about these problems and these people. It's so tiring. It makes me feel frustrated and static. Even if other areas of my life are moving. But one spent at home with my folks is not productive. I lose brain cells.

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anythingoes477 · M

There's a solution to your life problems.......................move out. Bingo...problem solved.

MamaButterfly · F

@anythingoes477 that may not always be easy for some.

anythingoes477 · M

@MamaButterfly Moving out ...being 100% responsible for yourself.......is not easy for anyone.

MamaButterfly · F

@anythingoes477 No it is not, I know that full well. I did it, but it's not always an easy road. If you don't have family, then who do you have? The reliance of strangers or friends, while in the meantime your friends have their own life going on, and when you don't have that you can either choose to be self-reliant or be on the mercy of strangers by the federal government or people on the streets if that resource runs out. Federal aid is only temporary and when you don't have that, you can depend on your own resources to survive. When you come to that conclusion then you become an independent person. That is where you find your own inner strength.

anythingoes477 · M

@MamaButterfly EXACTLY my point...........isn't it?

MamaButterfly · F

@anythingoes477 Yes it is because you don't have others in your face telling you that you have to do this or that. Self reliance and self sufficiency is so lacking in this country because if one goes against it, you are almost banished from society and family and friends, but when you stand alone at least you take with you inner peace and the values that you find sacred without having to give an explanation of why.

assemblingaknob · 31-35, F

@anythingoes477 sorry. Not possible for me. Cultural difference. You can't move out. Plus living in a 3rd world country means very high rents and not enough income. Let's say I belonged to the very liberal upper class, I could move out I guess, but I could still not afford living on my own. Then commute to and from work, a significant amount of my income would go to that. I wouldn't still be able to feed myself. It's all seriously fucked. I've thought about moving out, calculated, made plans, but it's literally impossible and extremely taboo.

assemblingaknob · 31-35, F

@anythingoes477 Also, I'm saving up to leave this country altogether (there's an option at my workplace where I can continue to work in the same field after a few years in another country) so let's say even if my income was enough to get me by on my own, I still wouldn't be able to save for the visa, exam fees, tickets and my stay in the new country.