It feels like it just happened yesterday.

It has been two years since my mom passed away. I can still remember begging her to wait for me to come home. But it was too late. She was already gone when I got home. It feels like it just happened yesterday. I always try to call the phone number she had when she was alive. But I know, it isn't working anymore. I am mad and angry at myself for not being able to save her. We just didn't have the money to save her. I didn't know what else I could have done.

Sometimes, I think and wish that one day, I hope I wont wake up anymore. It is also difficult to try to cope and get over my mom's death because I could not talk to anybody about how I feel, as my husband is emotionally unavailable. It hurts so bad. It feels like someone is stabbing my heart all over again and again. 💙😢

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LadyGrace ·

My heart breaks for you. I'm keeping you in my prayers.

Please don't blame yourself. When we're sick, like your beloved mom, our bodies sometimes [b]want[/b] to do more than they are able, but they are just too tired to go on. My deepest, sincerest condolences. ❤️🤗 I believe Jesus is keeping your mom in His arms and loving care, till you can reunite again. I pray this one, feeble, humble offering of thought, love, and care, shall give you hope and the strength to go on, and heal.

tryingtobeOK · 36-40, F

@LadyGrace Thank you so
much. Other people just care about the technicalities of the post. They don't actually care about how to respect someone who is grieving.
But thank you for the prayer, I hope it will give me strength. 💙🙏