I'm really sorry honey, I can't even imagine how that must feel, 😔 watching someone you love fall apart in front of you -- let alone someone you once saw as invincible as a child. I want to give you all the hugs, and I want to let you know that it's OK to feel weak and helpless sometimes despite the social expectation that you show strength in the face of extreme pain. You deserve all the hugs in the world and I hope you have an outlet to express yourself.