Disgusting self reflection and hard truths|

How do I still get surprised when words cut so deep? I should have seen it coming.

How can someone who says they love you say such deep cutting things? Same arguement, different day.

Why do I let the same people repeatedly hurt me? Take advantage of my grace and forbearance.

Why can't my boundaries be stronger? My codependency is suffocating me.

Why do I keep leaning to abusers for support? Expecting different results with no change.

Why do I keep giving chances? I let my forgiveness be taken advantage.

I need to do better for myself. I also need to give myself grace on this. This was not my fault. I am enough and I didn't deserve this.

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Isthisit · F

Sounds like you love and care very deeply and are being taken advantage of by abusers.
Its good that you realise you need to do better. Stand up for yourself. You have to put your foot down sometime. Stop letting others walk all over you. Im guessing you dont think very highly of yourself/ have low self esteem.
Have you heard that saying you teach people how to treat you?
That applies here. I guess you have to make a firm desicion that youre not going to let people treat you so poorly anymore.
Start saving yourself. You are more than worthit. Xx