Weird dreams.. like reality is not enough

Ever since my mother passed away, I dreamt quite a few times of her. In all dreams she was not talking, but I knew what she was saying or asking.. There was also not a single dream where she was alive... I was always aware in the dream that she died, and I'd be wondering how she is here and for how long she will stay... Even worse, last night I was working hard in the dream to hide from her the fact that she died..

We were in a place which I cannot identify (it is always the case, for some reason I never dream of her where we used to live, which seems weird to me) and while in most dreams she'd be lying or walking while leaning on me like in her last days and would ask for my help in some things.. last night she seemed in good health like before, walking by herself, and then picked up a speaker listening to classic Egyptian music while smiling ...

I was thinking to myself in the dream that she is in good health becauae she already died! Then she gets up and leaves the room, I was like shit all the nurses outside know her and someone might tell her that she died.. then I woke up while freaking out..

I hate these weird convoluted dreams... and they just stuck in my head