I Have Weird Dreams
Dreams to me have always been something very interesting as they have a wide variety. I remember having a dream about someone I had never met before, and another being kissed by a girl whom I've never met before. I've had dreams where I'm in another world. I've had dreams of terror. Most dreams are a complete blur to me and fade away quickly, but other dreams, I have a solid or at least near solid memory of with a lot of detail like this one I just recently had.
Oh boy, this is going to sound extremely embarrassing considering that I'm 18 and STILL watch this girly show from when I was only 6. For the past few days I recently started watching Totally Spies! on YouTube again, watching old and new episodes and seasons, and my favorite characters were the three girls Sam, Alex, and especially Clover.
Last night, I dreamed that I was actually talking to them. Literally talking to them, conversing and interacting with them and making eye contact with them face to face, but the weirdest part was that they knew who I was. They knew my name, how old I am, where I lived, etc and I for some reason knew that they lived near me too, or that I lived near them, pretty much knowing most to everything about me but at the same time, I knew who they were as well, almost as if we'd been friends for many years now. I remember them noticing that I was stressed out and depressed, and asking me if I was okay. I also remember them asking me what had happened at my job as somehow, word got out about my employment discrimination, and I remember at first being hesitant about telling them (because in real life, barely ANYONE believes me when I told them about me being discriminated against at my job) but they insisted that I told them anyways, so I eventually told them what had happened, and I was actually surprised to see that they had sympathized with me (because again, little to no one believes me when I tell them this in real life). I afterwards stated to them that my reasoning behind it was due to the fact that I am part of the most hated minority in the United States, and due to that, am as hated and as distrusted as a rapist, would not be voted for if I ever ran for public office or for US presidency, 7-8 states ban me from holding a public office, etc. They told me that they know that I'm not anything as how I'm described by those who hate me and wondered why I was hated so much. I told them it's because I'm viewed as immoral and purposeless because I am irreligious. They told me that those assumptions about me are wrong and that they can't see why I'd be immoral or purposeless for not possessing religious beliefs. They then asked if I told my family about what had happened. I told them that I never told my family (in reality, NO ONE in my family knows about the discrimination that took place). They asked why I hadn't told my family, and I responded to them saying that I can't trust my family (I really can't in actuality) and that I really can't trust anyone since little to no one actually believes me and blames it on me afterwards. They told me that at the very least, they believed me and understood my pain, and realized that me being an atheist doesn't make me a bad person and that I'm just really misunderstood. They stated to me afterwards that I could always confide in them and trust them and that they'll be there to support me. I remember tears rolling down my eyes and being flooded with emotion and I remember looking back at them and thanking them and I remember them smiling and saying to me: "You're welcome." and then the dream and their voices fading away and then waking up.
Waking up felt so bittersweet, because in a way, I didn't want the dream to end, I wanted to stay in the dream and continue talking to them. And the thing is too, I didn't think anything about it during the dream either. It all felt so real.
I've had dreams where I've interacted with characters before, but not really much like this. I only have a few hints as to why I had this dream, but would anyone mind telling me why I had this dream? What meaning did this dream have? Was it trying to tell me something? I know that my dream has to do to an extent with the workplace discrimination I recently endured because I just cannot stop thinking about it and feeling depressed and/or angry about it as well. And can anyone else tell me how to be more lucid in my dreams?
Oh boy, this is going to sound extremely embarrassing considering that I'm 18 and STILL watch this girly show from when I was only 6. For the past few days I recently started watching Totally Spies! on YouTube again, watching old and new episodes and seasons, and my favorite characters were the three girls Sam, Alex, and especially Clover.
Last night, I dreamed that I was actually talking to them. Literally talking to them, conversing and interacting with them and making eye contact with them face to face, but the weirdest part was that they knew who I was. They knew my name, how old I am, where I lived, etc and I for some reason knew that they lived near me too, or that I lived near them, pretty much knowing most to everything about me but at the same time, I knew who they were as well, almost as if we'd been friends for many years now. I remember them noticing that I was stressed out and depressed, and asking me if I was okay. I also remember them asking me what had happened at my job as somehow, word got out about my employment discrimination, and I remember at first being hesitant about telling them (because in real life, barely ANYONE believes me when I told them about me being discriminated against at my job) but they insisted that I told them anyways, so I eventually told them what had happened, and I was actually surprised to see that they had sympathized with me (because again, little to no one believes me when I tell them this in real life). I afterwards stated to them that my reasoning behind it was due to the fact that I am part of the most hated minority in the United States, and due to that, am as hated and as distrusted as a rapist, would not be voted for if I ever ran for public office or for US presidency, 7-8 states ban me from holding a public office, etc. They told me that they know that I'm not anything as how I'm described by those who hate me and wondered why I was hated so much. I told them it's because I'm viewed as immoral and purposeless because I am irreligious. They told me that those assumptions about me are wrong and that they can't see why I'd be immoral or purposeless for not possessing religious beliefs. They then asked if I told my family about what had happened. I told them that I never told my family (in reality, NO ONE in my family knows about the discrimination that took place). They asked why I hadn't told my family, and I responded to them saying that I can't trust my family (I really can't in actuality) and that I really can't trust anyone since little to no one actually believes me and blames it on me afterwards. They told me that at the very least, they believed me and understood my pain, and realized that me being an atheist doesn't make me a bad person and that I'm just really misunderstood. They stated to me afterwards that I could always confide in them and trust them and that they'll be there to support me. I remember tears rolling down my eyes and being flooded with emotion and I remember looking back at them and thanking them and I remember them smiling and saying to me: "You're welcome." and then the dream and their voices fading away and then waking up.
Waking up felt so bittersweet, because in a way, I didn't want the dream to end, I wanted to stay in the dream and continue talking to them. And the thing is too, I didn't think anything about it during the dream either. It all felt so real.
I've had dreams where I've interacted with characters before, but not really much like this. I only have a few hints as to why I had this dream, but would anyone mind telling me why I had this dream? What meaning did this dream have? Was it trying to tell me something? I know that my dream has to do to an extent with the workplace discrimination I recently endured because I just cannot stop thinking about it and feeling depressed and/or angry about it as well. And can anyone else tell me how to be more lucid in my dreams?
26-30, M
