What did you need to hear as a child or even right now?

That they are proud of me, and that I am not a waste of space.
The only chance I got to spend time with my mother after the age of 12, was if I was in the bar with her. Otherwise I was left alone with my older brother, and he was not so nice. Let's just say, I was an alcoholic by the time I was 16 because my thought process at that age was that is was cool to drink with my mother in the bars, because it got me friends & people who watched out for me. And growing up without a father, I thought all the men around my mom were cool, until some were not so cool and mean. I had a fucked up childhood, where drinking was the norm and it was okay to be treated like shit by mother's boyfriends.