What is it REALLY like...
Today i decided to check myself..how i think..or overthink..the foods i like, the feelings i have, the opinions i make. Today i chose to be joyful..cuz happiness is mereley a moment of contentment that changes with random emotional feelings.
I vented to my journal logs..they help me get it out.
I spoke to my thereapist, she informed me i am who i wanna be. I even prayed about it to God almighty!
I feel differently, less disappointment and more satisfaction. I learned if ot hurt me this long, i can let it go within myself.
I dont NEED a man to hurt me, but i DESIRE cuddles on the couch, netflix nights, board games and uno cards..scrabble time..yeah buddy i want that connection of companionship.
This whole time i thought i wanted an intimacy, yet i discover every day that passes, i want a man who wants nothing more than Gods best for me.
Maybe oneday prince charming will enter into my life..or maybe its a moron in tin foil and fights ailen encounters..? 🤔 whichever happens first, im good to feel great above all things..its good to be myself again. Shine on!
I vented to my journal logs..they help me get it out.
I spoke to my thereapist, she informed me i am who i wanna be. I even prayed about it to God almighty!
I feel differently, less disappointment and more satisfaction. I learned if ot hurt me this long, i can let it go within myself.
I dont NEED a man to hurt me, but i DESIRE cuddles on the couch, netflix nights, board games and uno cards..scrabble time..yeah buddy i want that connection of companionship.
This whole time i thought i wanted an intimacy, yet i discover every day that passes, i want a man who wants nothing more than Gods best for me.
Maybe oneday prince charming will enter into my life..or maybe its a moron in tin foil and fights ailen encounters..? 🤔 whichever happens first, im good to feel great above all things..its good to be myself again. Shine on!
41-45, F
