I just gotta write so I can go to bed. Lol

It's been a while since I've spoken to my friends here. Now I can reassure you, I'm not going away again. My life has and continues to change since last. The theme has been more about clarity than anything else. I learned the truth about my family, others, and friendships outside of this here. It wasn't all pleasant, usually isn't but it's necessary so I can move on. As of right now, I'm a little hurt but I am also excited for a new life ahead. I'll soon be working and living on a farm away from my hometown. The peace from that is what I truly need after an exciting but terrifying year. Being in the city was like living in a war zone; Gunshots every night and some during the day, people strung out in the parking lot, fighting right below my apartment, going home to my apartment being wrecked by burglars. It wasn't fun despite being away from a toxic family. Now, that I've moved back in with them, we inevitably fought and what was said and done cannot be taken back. I know now, exactly how they feel and what they think...it just makes me feel even more alienated than before. Regardless, I only have a short time to endure until I know I'm hired as a farmhand. I'll also be working the land with my wife by my side. She'll show me the ropes and hopefully after that I'll fit in awesomely. For now, we wait. Good things are coming. ☀️

P.s. Once I start working on the farm, you bet I'll take pictures of the animals and landscape. I got you!