how often do you find yourself with nobody to talk to?

so many questions and the only things to do are sitting and thinking, alone, day in and day out.

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Youni19 · 26-30, F

Never

Xeross · 31-35, M

@Youni19: it's like that for me, every single day, it's actually starting to chip away at my sanity after so many years.

Youni19 · 26-30, F

@Xeross: You got people on SW to talk to... in fact, you got the whole internet .-. You just need to find the people who are willing to listen. If you want to talk to people face to face, then can't you just go out and socialize? Easier said than done, I know

Xeross · 31-35, M

schizophrenia, bipolar, and not to mention I manage to mess up any relationship, friend or otherwise, no matter how good my intentions. believe it or not, before today I have never talked to anyone beside my ex about my feelings. and that had a hand in her leaving...that and she wanted a child sooner than I could give one to her

Youni19 · 26-30, F

Are you being treated for those things?
Who was it that you talked to today? @Xeross:

Xeross · 31-35, M

no, I am not, can't afford it. I talked to undeadprivateer 99% of it. wouldn't consider the others talking, just remarking once or twice on similarities in our situations.

Youni19 · 26-30, F

:( Hmm. What kinds of things do you wish to talk to people about?
@Xeross:

Xeross · 31-35, M

@Youni19: whatever happens to be on either of our minds, no holding back. basically being each others confidante, and just someone to be there when things seem bleak

Youni19 · 26-30, F

I see what you mean.. have you ever had someone like that in your life before? @Xeross:

Xeross · 31-35, M

@Youni19: just my ex, she left me a little while ago, before that I rarely left my room. 16/7 20/2 up until july 2015

Youni19 · 26-30, F

How did you and your ex meet? @Xeross:

Xeross · 31-35, M

my cousin set me up with her, best thing that had ever happened to me

Youni19 · 26-30, F

@Xeross: Did she ever tell you what she liked about you?

Xeross · 31-35, M

that I wasn't anything like her exes. they were abusive

Youni19 · 26-30, F

Anything personality-wise that she liked about you?
What about you, what do you like about yourself? @Xeross:

Xeross · 31-35, M

I hate me, she like that I could snap her out of her depression no matter how far gone she was because I was always so optimistic and happy. truth is it was her that made me that way. I was the way I am now before I met her

Youni19 · 26-30, F

What about her made you so happy? @Xeross:

Xeross · 31-35, M

she got me like nobody else did, she accepted all my flaws and still loved me, she was the kindest, strongest, intelligent beautiful girl I had ever met

Youni19 · 26-30, F

So then for what reason did you guys break up? @Xeross:

Xeross · 31-35, M

I couldn't be there for her as often as she wanted and couldn't give her a child quick enough..

Youni19 · 26-30, F

If she gave you another chance, would you do the opposite? @Xeross:

Xeross · 31-35, M

Is try to be there more often, I was usually working trying to get everything we'd need as a family. as for the baby, I'm not sure how much more I could've done. we tried every time we saw each other.