This will not be a play by play diary kind of thing, but whatever is topmost in the head during what will be 4 hours wake periods, with just a couple mugs of coffee.
After the next few days my coffee will be black, but for now I have a yummy caramel creamer to put into it.
My coffee maker though is not functioning smoothly, so there is a chance i'd have to do without hot beverages.
"Just make tea" someone says -- which is not likely unless I spend what I haven't got on clean cups and so forth.
There were tea bags on top of the stove, and it was last year around this time that the mice got into them all too!!
I have written to my brother about my financial straights, not asking for help, not yet, not sure if he would help, he would I imagine just see this as proof that I indeed cannot be living on my own. He gave me that talk last time we went to see dad. Next dad visit is November 30th, so 3 days after I victoriously make it, by the skin of my teeth!!
I have to spend many a day without weed too, weed I think contributes to how I feel the weirdness of my physiognomy, so reducing that may be good in and of itself.
My 4 hours wake periods may include some activity on SW, for it's nice and reassuring to spend a little bit of time around others, and for odd ducks like me it's better in many ways than face to face time with others. But with my Kindle in hand reading calmly sipping coffee, running thru the head always reprogramming the mind, to be able to be the kind of person that doesn't need any more help than he already is blessed with. And there will come a time when I won't have my brother, I must be ready hence to be able to pay all bills and etc directly, and not just transfer it to brother so he can pay them.
Peace be with you all, and see you around on this my 1 of 14 all the way to 14 of 14 and beyond. ☺
Cogitations
1 -- If one is under the idiotic impression that they can get all they ever need from a specimen such as a News story topic book or whatever all on their own on a first reading or impression is a person I shall gladly make at least here to be never seen again.
2 -- One at a time but only per day, a different each day, but as each day is past, that day's selection may come back as early as the day after the next one.
3 -- Autonomy is a myth when one ends up agreeing with things that make his innermost being retch.
4 -- those who demonize the lesser fortunate and enshrine as God those amassingtheir wealth from those they demonize that just barely got by which the soulless elites steal from them to add to their riches they don't need except for illegaql actions and deal, supporters of that saying to what is of actual value as crap, is the kind of thing that snapped me the other day here, whenever I see a brainwashed person who proudly declares their abhorrent views, will be the last time I see them.
