I do the job I do for personal reasons

I will tell you but I don’t want to go into loads of detail about every single part I’ve mentioned , I have several mental health problems and an disability and it pays for my therapy , I also got expelled from school and I’m trying to fund my education so I can turn it around , it helps pay for my health Care too because I have health problems , I have an history of sexual assault so it’s one way I cope with it by taking money off men and having some power , the power I never got in those situations , I can’t hold down an normal job , I came from an very poor family and was very dysfunctional , I have body dysmorphia and I also had an eating disorder which I’m in recovery for so it helps me overcome that , I do love pole dancing I have been doing that since I was 19 so I wanted an job were I got paid to do that and it was one of my dream jobs , I was alone until I got this job now I have an group of close friends I can vent to and hang out with at work and outside of work , before I always hung out myself and I didn’t have anyone I could talk to expect for online friends , I have an lot of childhood trauma and I was abused too right into my teens by different men , I have done a lot of stuff in my past which I’m not proud of which makes it hard for me to get an normal job , I was bullied really badly at school so it makes me happy I get paid for being naked and dancing and I just want to be truly happy and have an amazing life one day. This is one of my dream jobs that I currently have and overall I do truly love it , I just have some shit nights like tonight but they happen to everyone and they are just apart of life. I don’t have time to post about every single bit of my life or job , there’s so many good things I don’t tell you , but Im genuinely happy with this job and it’s really improved my life