I should have said something long ago to her.

I have a friend who will always hold a special place in my heart. We met in 1995 though mutual friends. We instantly hit it off and became fast friends. She's just so rad and we share a lot of the same interests. I was elated to find someone who's brain was wired like mine who can just get me. Like the idiot I was and very much still am I was too afraid to say how I felt to her. I was afraid I'd wreck our friendship and I was afraid of being rejected. My worst fear was hearing her say "Oh Ivan I see you as a friend only don't be silly."

I kick myself for not saying anything. She has been married for quite sometime now. Her husband is a cool guy and they make a great couple. As much as I want to shit on the guy I can't bring myself to do it. He treats her well and loves her and who am I to shoot on someone like that.

Oh well, I'll just continue to keep my mouth shut.