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I Did Something I Regret

Okay, confession time.

Back in high school, we had this introvert classmate. In hindsight I known that she was a legitimately good person, spending her free time to explain maths and stuff to the slower students and always smiling to everybody. But at the time, we were popular and bored, so we started bullying her. She really wasn't particularly pretty, not ugly tho, kinda like a wallflower type of girl. Also she had this annoying high-pitched voice, of course thats wasnt her fault, but it made her an easy target. I guess we did it just because we could, because she was there. It started with small things, mean rumours and nasty remarks. After a while, it got more out of hand, like inventing stuff that's supposedly been missing and blaming her. Eventually some of the popular guys joined in and carried it even further. One time, they placed a pin on her chair before she entered the classroom. Or they would throw pencils and stuff at her during class. She broke down crying several times, but not once did we stop to ask ourselves what in the hell we were doing to her.
By the end she was completely isolated, because everbody knew to avoid her like the plague lest they would also become a target of the bullies. She started gaining a lot of weight, probably ate herself to sleep every night on ice cream or something. When graduation came around, she was totally obese. I remember noticing during the prom dance how she just stood there, awkwardly, completely alone, and left pretty soon.
Now at the time it was just a joke to my friends and me, nothing to give a second thought to. But ever since I left high school, it dawned on me what we had done to that poor person, and I feel so bad about it. So that's my confession right here, and I really regret it. But I guess you cant change the past..
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You and your friends are nothing but scum!! Really the lowest form of life. I spent most of my school life being terrorized by bullies. I got so bad that by the time I was 14, I'd been in hospital 6 times as a direct result. 4 times where due to the beatings and twice after suicide attempts. They say that time is a healer, that's utter crap. Almost 30 years after my school life ended, I'm still suffering. I suffer from the most horrific depression and agoraphobia. I've not been able to leave my house for 15 years. I'm told I suffer from a condition almost identical to PTSD, and I get told to move on and forget! How can I move on when every day I see the scars on my face looking back at me in the mirror and remember how I got them. How can I move on when every day I see the deep scars on my wrists, and remember the chain of events that led to them??

It's no wonder the poor girl blocked you, she doesn't need reminding of the hell you and your friends put her through.

I'm sure that you're enjoying a wonderful life, full of hope and joy, while your victim is probably still going through hell. I find it amazing that you decide to write a confession here, do you think that it makes it all better, and rescinds you of your actions?? Guess again. The damage is already done.