I Have Ptsd Nightmares And Flashbacks
PTSD - Proud. Tough. Strong. Determined.
Some people have a normal loving childhood. They grow up in a loving home. Loving parents. Great education, great friends.
They choose to go to a university.
Choosing to study in a course they want, knowing it will be stressful but worth it in the end.
They then choose their profession once they graduated.
They get a job, sure it can be tiring and stressful but they knew that.
They then meet someone and decide to get married, two people choosing a life decision.
Should they have kids or none? Again, it is their choice.
Choice.... Free will... is a precious gift...
Although they have never been on the other side.
Where there are those who are haunted by the ghosts of their past in their nightmares.
Do they get a choice whether or not to have those dreams?
To wake up and have the past and the present entwine as one.
Do they have a choice when there fears come to life?When hell becomes their reality and not in their dreams?
When they wake up thinking that they are back to where it all began, to where choice was not up to them?
Is it a choice to still have flash backs, to shake with fear if something reminds them of the trauma?
And so what happens if both individuals, the child who had a great childhood growing up to be successful with choices, stands before the child who grew up with a vindictive surrounding that had things being done to them that stripped away a childs innocence...
Would they be able to see the darkness that colours their aura? Or would they judge a book by its cover?
Because the difference is, is that they are the ones who get out of bed everyday fighting the same demons that haunt their wake.
They are the ones that wear the scars on their sleeves battling the same demons.
They are the ones that repeatedly live in some twisted time loops curse because they did not have a choice to what had happened or to what some saw.
They are the warriors that do it everyday, they fight everyday, they go to bed knowing they will have to do it again the very next day..
Because they choose to fight to live for another day. And that is courage that the other will never understand.
So what happens if they too should one day have the darkness fall upon them? When they once judged a book that had the answers if they had only bothered to know the authors story. Would they know how to battle the dark? Would they know that the darkness has a flaw? Would they be able to find it?
If you do not not know ones story, how dare you judge their cover.
Stop the stigma that you know nothing about.
Xx To all those with chronic PTSD.... you are a survivor.
Some people have a normal loving childhood. They grow up in a loving home. Loving parents. Great education, great friends.
They choose to go to a university.
Choosing to study in a course they want, knowing it will be stressful but worth it in the end.
They then choose their profession once they graduated.
They get a job, sure it can be tiring and stressful but they knew that.
They then meet someone and decide to get married, two people choosing a life decision.
Should they have kids or none? Again, it is their choice.
Choice.... Free will... is a precious gift...
Although they have never been on the other side.
Where there are those who are haunted by the ghosts of their past in their nightmares.
Do they get a choice whether or not to have those dreams?
To wake up and have the past and the present entwine as one.
Do they have a choice when there fears come to life?When hell becomes their reality and not in their dreams?
When they wake up thinking that they are back to where it all began, to where choice was not up to them?
Is it a choice to still have flash backs, to shake with fear if something reminds them of the trauma?
And so what happens if both individuals, the child who had a great childhood growing up to be successful with choices, stands before the child who grew up with a vindictive surrounding that had things being done to them that stripped away a childs innocence...
Would they be able to see the darkness that colours their aura? Or would they judge a book by its cover?
Because the difference is, is that they are the ones who get out of bed everyday fighting the same demons that haunt their wake.
They are the ones that wear the scars on their sleeves battling the same demons.
They are the ones that repeatedly live in some twisted time loops curse because they did not have a choice to what had happened or to what some saw.
They are the warriors that do it everyday, they fight everyday, they go to bed knowing they will have to do it again the very next day..
Because they choose to fight to live for another day. And that is courage that the other will never understand.
So what happens if they too should one day have the darkness fall upon them? When they once judged a book that had the answers if they had only bothered to know the authors story. Would they know how to battle the dark? Would they know that the darkness has a flaw? Would they be able to find it?
If you do not not know ones story, how dare you judge their cover.
Stop the stigma that you know nothing about.
Xx To all those with chronic PTSD.... you are a survivor.
