Just a flash

of your hand enveloping and tightening around my wrist is enough to wake me into nausea, shaking, and breathing I can’t control. Just a flash of you takes another few hours of my life.

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TexChik · F

Was your trauma recent? Mine occurred when I was a child. I'm sorry you suffer with that...its been with me 28 years. You can learn to master it for the most part. 😊

itsok · 31-35, F

@TexChik three separate time periods, with the latter two still being nightmare causing. This one over a decade ago. Not really a fan of your last sentence, mostly because I feel shame over how it affects me.

TexChik · F

@itsok the dreams come back when i get upset . I have been told that is common with PTSD. Not sleeping makes it worse . I hope you are getting help to deal with this and heal . No one can do it alone . It’s horrible, I know .

itsok · 31-35, F

@TexChik thank you ❤️ I have been getting help for a very long time. And things I’m working through right now are exacerbating certain traumas that I haven’t been able to deal with in this way before.

TexChik · F

@itsok there are a lot of us ( traumatized) here . I’m sure you recognized some . I still have the rage , it’s as fresh as the night he raped me ..:and I had to learn to vent it . My adoptive father helped me with that . Stay strong .