I'm lonely but not ready to date

Since the man I loved passed away I just haven't felt like dating anyone else and its been over a year now. I miss intimacy, but I still love him so dating feels somehow wrong. I also don't feel like I could ever love someone like I loved him. So it seems unfair to anyone I date. Plus I have his ashes in my bedroom so thats another thing. We wanted to be scattered together somewhere when I die. I just don't really even know who I am anymore or truly what I want my future to be.