Life is a cumulative set of judgments from the universe unto ourselves. The judgements get harsher and more definitive as we age...as life becomes more of a real finite project we've undertaken and less of a game...
*Being alone is a good start - if you don't feel complete [u]before[/u] dating, you never will. Being with yourself allows you to ground yourself and build a secure basis for a healthy relationship. Dating from an "already complete" perspective is more enriching because it will allow you to be more confident and build a better trust bond with your partner = long lasting love (especially if they also did some self development before meeting you) Brace yourself - your best relationship is maybe just around the corner! :)
@Reflection2 [quote] Losing my dad has torn me apart and now wonder what really is the purpose. [/quote]
Death of a friend, which your dad must have been to you, is a gaping chasm in your life. The impact is quite amazing because you never thought it could ever be that affecting. It brings into question the substantiality of your very own existence. Is this the "loneliness" you are talking about?
@sree251 That too but also, I feel like I am alone in this word. A purposeless life. Lacking drive to go for something. Clouded mind and emotions. It's just so many things and it's overwhelming