HOw lonely are you?

I feel like iv been in captivity the majority of my life. Iv had friends before. But i guess they were fake. I had a long term relationship. It was destroyed. I have spent years pacing around in the same room for years just eating, sleeping and going to work no longer trusting humanity but hoping that not everyone has became the way i percieve them. I dont remeber what it feel like to have a friend because i can no longer trust people.