some days start well but don't end well, some days start bad but end well, somedays go okay, somedays go horrible, not a day goes well 💯 I'm so tired

Sadly when you hope for the best you often face disappointment. And it's hard not to set expectations as well as find time to recharge. I understand where you're coming from.

Have you tried writing a mantra, something you read the minute you wake up to set your focus? It might help.